I can also understand you and i empathize you too. Please don't get me wrong. I was just sharing my condition and situation that has ruined my career at the age of 21 when i was just about to make a fresh start. Please don't feel bad. We're all in the same boat and we must care and empathize for each other.
at least you might have traveled somewhere ouf of USA. I haven't been able to go anywhere and at the age of 21, i finally made a vow to myself to live a nomadic life and Thailand was my first destination but couldn't go there due to covid, i mean the lockdown started just few days ago my expected travel. I'm glad that i at least didn't book the flights or hotels or my money would have been wasted. And, yes, i can understand you very well. Due to covid, i was very bored at home so i had to buy a gaming console which i never intended to buy but i had to do it, in order to not get bored at home. I was so depressed that i had to consult a psychiatrist. I thought I'd never visit a psychiatrist again but i had to as I'm still suffering from anxiety, depression and OCD and the ability of still not be able to travel there is very discouraging and depressing too.