@Russell ******

- thank you Russell for your kind words and thoughts. Yes it was possible that her tumour was already growing before she arrived but with sarcoma anything is possible. You are right I am trying to 'process' it all. I am questioning everything especially myself. It will take time to put the jigsaw together.

I am in Sheffield currently but originally from Southampton what about you?

@Sabrina ****************

- thank you Sabrina I am trying to make sense of what has happened. The grief is beyond words. She was my world, my life. I know in time it should get better but to lose someone who was so incredible hurts like a dagger in my heart. It will take a very long time to come to terms with my loss. I thank you for your kind words and support 😔💔🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

@Alex ******

- thank you so much for your kind words and thoughts 😔🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

@Edwin *******

- thank you Edwin such lovely words. I am finding peoples comments 'healing'. I just need to put the jigsaw together and hopefully I'll be able to accept that I couldn't have done anymore. As for someone 'new' I want only friendship and support and I do have some good friends to turn to so hopefully they will help me 🙏🏼

@Steve *******

- thank you Steve very wise words. I am beginning to feel a little better reading everyone's comments that I did my best. I do think it's natural though to question if you made the right calls. The problem was we weren't given the correct information to make the correct decisions. If we had she would have passed away in Thailand with her family and friends around her. Anyway thank you for being so honest. As I said I am trying to put the jigsaw together once it's fitting into place maybe I'll be able to come to terms with what has happened better 😔🙏🏼

@Kelash *******

- thank you Kelash I appreciate your kind words and thoughts. I am trying to come to terms with it and I guess I am analysing everything including myself. Knowledge is everything and sadly we weren't given the information we should have to make the correct decisions 💔😔🙏🏼

@Bam ****

- thank you Bam Bam everyone has said this and everyone said that I did as much and more than possible. I can't help but wonder about many things though maybe it's just my personality? It's the 10 day window and fact they did nothing for 6 weeks that's upsetting me the most. She fought to the end she just needed a little help 💔😔🙏🏼

@Bonnie ******

- thank you Bonnie I am seeking answers. They let it grow even bigger here twice as big we think. I can't help wondering if it was removed immediately she might have had a chance but I respect your opinion. It was regarded as large from first detection 😔🙏🏼

@George ********

- thank you George I have read a little but will check out your link 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

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