Just read that a minute ago here. Maybe this is helpful. I wish you all the Best.
WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO RESIST ?
Bert Hellinger (R.I.P.) said: "Life disappoints you because you stop living in illusions and see reality." Life destroys everything that is superfluous, until only what is important remains. Life doesn't leave you alone until you stop fighting it and accept what it is. Life takes away what you have, until you stop complaining and start giving thanks. Life sends you conflicted people so you heal and stop projecting out what’s inside.
Life will let you fall again and again until you decide to learn the lesson. Life takes you off-road and presents you with crossroads until you stop wanting to control and flow like a river. Life puts enemies in your path until you stop "reacting". Life scares you all the times necessary to lose fear and regain faith.
Life takes away your true love, it doesn’t give it to you nor allows it to you, until you stop wanting to buy it with fritters.
Life takes you away from the people you love until you understand that we are not this body but the soul that contains it. Life laughs at you many times, until you stop taking yourself so seriously and learn to laugh at yourself@. Life breaks you into as many pieces as necessary for the light to penetrate from there.
Life repeats the same message with slaps and screams until you listen. Life sends you lightning and storms so you can wake up. Life will humiliate and defeat you until you decide to let your Ego die.
Life denies you possessions and greatness until you stop wanting possessions and greatness and begin serving. Life cuts your wings and roots, until you no longer need wings or roots, but only to disappear into the form and fly from the being that you are. Life denies you miracles until you understand everything is a miracle. Life shortens your time so that you learn to live. Life ridicules you until you become nothing, until you become nobody, then you become everything.
Life doesn't give you what you want, but what you need to evolve. Life hurts you, hurts you, torments you, until you let go of your whims and enjoy breathing. Life hides treasures for you until you begin your journey and go out in search of them. Life denies you God, until you see Him in everyone and everything. Life demands you, takes you, cuts you, breaks you, disappoints you, breaks you... Until there is only LOVE in you
Never happened to me yet, but i also realised that Thai and Indonesians somehow get mad with Money. You can for example never give a Friend Money for something or someone else. It will never reach the Destination. They don't think like Western. Even if this kills the Relationship for ever, they do it. I heard from one Case, where a Man was working 20 years for the Owner of a very nicely done beautiful Hotel in Lombok. Sadly the Owner put the name of this 20 years long good worker into the Ownership of the Hotel, to make things easier for him. Then the Indonesian acted like "Who are you? This is my Land and Hotel."
I love Indonesia and the people here. I really admire them. They are the nicest in the World for me. But with Money, they can not deal with this and behave highly irrational.