@Patricia ******

- thank you Patricia for these kind words. It's interesting what you say about the medical situation in Thailand I guess I was wanting clarification because you always think 'what if?'. I posted on some other groups and overwhelmingly every one has said much the same that I did my best. I am still in shock about what has happened. It's heart breaking 💔😔🙏🏼

@Russell ******

- retired Russell, I shall take her home within the next 6 months and after a further period of 6 months I shall be a no mad traveller. Not what I planned but I can't stay here 😔🙏🏼

@Cliff ********

- thank you Cliff it's coming together thanks to everyone's comments and support 🙏🏼....I would have travelled to Thailand with her. I now have to take her remains back to Thailand for her family to carry out the Thai rituals 😔🙏🏼

@Klaus *****

- thank you Klaus for your kind words and thoughts, 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

@Rosh *******

- thank you Rosh...the jigsaw puzzle is now 95% complete. I am learning so much tonight and its coming together. I have loved the caring support out there I thank you all 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

@Bruce ****************

- thank you for your kind words. I didn't know about the palliative care situation in Thailand. I thought that they had morphine but thank you anyway. Everyone is saying the same thing that she had no chance no matter where she was. For me it's putting every jigsaw piece into place then I can rest 😔🙏🏼

@Stig *************

- thank you Stig I appreciate your comments that's the great mystery for me but certainly most people are saying the same thing. Obviously it doesn't make me feel any better it just puts a few more of the jigsaw pieces into place 😔🙏🏼

@Christopher **********

- thank you Christopher I appreciate your comments. I think she wasn't too ill with the sepsis during the 10 day window I remember reading that you would need an oxygen cylinder I think she could have got home in that window. I appreciate though what you said and about cancer in general 😔🙏🏼

@Darren ********

- wow Darren what a story you have to tell too! Can't believe you returned from such grief to find out about the ex...as the saying goes you missed a bullet although obviously it didn't feel like that at the time. It's heartwarming to hear that from that gloom you rose up and sorted out a better life for yourself.

I can totally relate to what you said about the medical situation. For me I question why she wasn't told to return home and then they did nothing for 6 weeks. Someone else has said that she probably wasn't well enough but she should have been sent home at the earliest opportunity. Thanks again for your support 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

@Sam *****

- thank you so much for your kind words and thoughts. I have found a tremendous amount of comfort from reading all the lovely supportive comments. I am still putting the jigsaw together but tonight I think it's maybe now 95% complete. She was such a wonderful woman I miss her beyond words 💔😔🙏🏼